Forgive? Move past? Rage against wrong?

I'm at an interesting spiritual point. You see I find it very hard to forgive, very hard to move past spiritual betrayal. Years ago there was a group I was a member of, a group that truly became a family. Part of me was willing to accept the status quo, and simply be happy -- part of what was being built was really, really good. Part of it however just wouldn't sit, wouldn't lie still, wouldn't simple be ignored. And it was a part filled with lies, betrayal, illusions, and I even think mental illness. Who was the member to uncover this? You guessed it, me. Go figure! And of course in the process I became the whipping boy... I became the one who was wrong, and evil - at least for a short period of time until the entire group fell to pieces, and everyone eventually turning their back on the leader/teacher/founder.

And she is still around. Part of me is happy that she seems happy, she seems to have been able to put her life back together, in a new way, which suits her. She is back with her husband, has a book now self-published, and truly seems to be thriving. Part of me know she is still "the Piglet" though, part of me knows that she is still lost partially in illusion, and that she still is willing to blame me for all that occurred, taking NO responsibility herself.

Interestingly enough I keep stumbling upon things having to do with her. I'm not sure what it all means - other than part of me has to finally cut all the remaining bonds, ties, oaths, and let it go. But see, I'm not sure how to do that 100%.

I'm a work in progress. I look to the Ancestors and the Gods for guidance. I look to my favorite trees, plants, and animals for guidance. I look to the Scales and Wings to help me figure this puzzle out. What is right is right, and what is wrong is wrong. That I know I cannot compromise, cannot let go of. From there, we shall see how this all works out. Life is never boring!